The WoRLd in a PapARaZzo's EyeS

At LCCT

2011-04-14T11:38:00.000-07:00

Hello guys. Yes i am at lcct at this hour. 2.30am in the morning. Waiting for my early flight back to penang. Life has been hell since i started my clinical phase at melaka. Tests, homework, being made to copy stuffs for many times, scoldings etc. I would be happy to just hav 7 hours of sleep during the weekdays. Perhaps only with the o&g posting it's not that great. In a blink of eye i'm already done with the posting. Moving on to the medicine department with fingers crossed, hoping that it'll be less hectic for the next 1.5 month. Seriously, i need more breaks.

Variable

2011-01-17T09:32:00.000-08:00

Drawing a line is the most difficult thing to do in the world, because nothing is definite and nothing is permanent. there's always exception. we hate people to do something sometimes and yet when we do the same we feel that it's okay.
or, today's yes could be tomorrow's no. your misfortune could be someone's treasure.

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1. humans always contradict themselves.
2. everyone's perception differs.

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Everything is always easier said than done.

-end of post-

Nothing to do

2010-12-25T09:40:00.000-08:00

Well, it's not that i really have nothing to do, it's just that i'm too lazy to do anything. homework and books are piling up and yet i chose to close one eye. i'm just getting better and better at procrastinating. argh i hate my self for this! my laziness always gets the better of me :(
Now, some quick updates:
Currently i'm in the clinical phase already, which means i'm having postings in hospitals with different departments, namely Medicine, Psychiatry, Community Medicine, Paediatrics, Obstetric and Gynaecology, and lastly Surgery. Now i've finished 3 already, gonna finish the fourth one in another week(thank god!). My experience? It's kinda tiring to be standing all day long but overall it's still considered good. We learn to examine patients and apply whatever we've learned in the past two years into practice.
frankly speaking, every single day i have only 2 things in my mind during my posting: 1. what time is the class ending? i want it to finish asap. 2. i hope the class is being cancelled.
I even dreaded to go for classes on some days. What has happened to me? I think the major problem is the communication problem. I don't speak the Indian local language and it's kinda hard to talk to them. Even if i know how to speak, I don't know what they are telling me and yet we are supposed to ask tonnes of questions in order to get a freaking GOOD history from those patients. worse still, for those who even know how to speak english, i still have problem understanding them and they have problem understanding me too(their english is crappy). to even start the conversation i feel damn frustrated already. i just hope that the remaining less-than-two months can pass quickly.
Recently my mind has not been very productive, maybe because i watch less dramas and also those clinical postings tire me so much that i simply don't have time to do ponderings. However, fear not, i still spend time thinking each and every one of you, my dear friends. i really miss all of you very much.
alright, it's time for me to sleep. good night and merry christmas people! gotta go! =)
p/s: i was reading back my own previous posts and i was kinda impressed by my own thoughts and writings. lol. i guess my english is deteriorating. hah. alright ignore me. and thanks for reading this piece of crap. byeeeeeeeeee

闷

2010-10-03T03:54:00.000-07:00

真想每天就这样坐着，什么都不想，什么都不做，没有责任，没有烦恼。唉....

27.5.2010

2010-05-26T22:48:00.000-07:00

It has only been 2 months since i returned to Manipal, but why the heck does it feel like i'm stuck here for FREAKING ONE YEAR long already???? arghhh time please pass faster, i wanna go back! this is hell! I miss singing k n shopping~

Another random

2010-05-21T11:58:00.000-07:00

I superlike this line written by a good friend. "We play, we crap, we laugh and we share! Because we're friends!" I miss my old friends...

By the way, here's something to ponder:
1. Repetition does not make something a fact or a truth.
2. I still think that silence is golden. The more you talk, the more mistake you make. there is a chinese proverb saying 祸从口出.
3. If u cannot ameliorate something, at least make some effort to prevent it from becoming worse.
4. Great minds think alike, and fools seldom differ too.
5. People say, seeing is believing. I say, observe and think carefully(perhaps 1000 times are still not enough), life is full of possibilities and sometimes what you see is a very small part of the whole picture. Never ever just touch the surface of the water and say you had dived into it. Every event has more than one side story. Be the judge yourself.

Random

2010-05-04T10:00:00.000-07:00

1. I wish to just do nothing. Tests, can you just leave me alone?
2. Money isn't everything. "we cannot live without money" doesn't give u a right to be money-faced.
3. Ppl only do things that benefit themselves. i guess i'm too kind?
4. I'm a porcupine.
5. If only ifs are real...
6. Humans are flawed.
7. It is difficult to live in lies. whatever you are lying for, make sure it's worth the lies. Lie wisely.
8. Whatever happens, happens for a reason.
9. Sometimes a fool leads a happier life than an intelligent person.
10. The one i trust the most is not a who but a what - my instinct.

假日

2010-04-02T04:42:00.000-07:00

今天是 Good Friday，刚好是难得一年才有十天左右的假日其中之一。趁着刚开学不久，还没酱多功课，赶紧把已在hard disk 里很久港剧看完。真是好难得有得轻松啊！！虽然才回来一个星期，上的课也不多，但也足以让我觉得很累很累很累了。可能是因为这个sem即将要考uni exam吧。唉，想到就很显。。。

有谣言说星期一会有放假，真希望那是真的，酱我又有得休息多一天了。呵呵，懒惰的我就是这样，总是觉得假期不够多，不够长。有了一天，就会想要有另一天。

人，总是贪得无厌。。。

Haunted

2010-01-17T09:17:00.001-08:00

Hehe. This post is not about ghosts or anything superstitious.

Human beings are always haunted. By what? One’s unresolved past. We always thought we are lucky enough to have escaped from something troubling us and tend to forget it, without knowing that the problem is silently incorporated into our lives n will strike us again one day. E.g. tomorrow is your test, you are not in time to finish your study but with luck somehow you manage to do well(or at least pass) in the test. You thought, phew, I don’t have to worry bout the unfinished portion because the test is over, n u don’t study for it. But, when the final exam comes, you will be haunted by the unfinished portion again n you still have to study for it.

That is only a small prob faced by students. In real life, there are a lot more problems(health, money, relationships etc) to be encountered, n to be solved. If u do not solve it, n u think it is over, then u r wrong. THE PAST WILL ALWAYS COME BACK TO HAUNT YOU. I’ve experienced it lots and lots of times. The same problem keeps getting back to you and it could be worse than the last one. There will be only 3 outcomes: 1. You face the prob, solve it and will never be bothered by it any longer; 2. You dodge a little here n a little there and somehow endured the prob without solving it, and u will run into it face to face again next time; 3. You run away from the prob and the next time u see it, the prob is amplified.

Therefore, if possible, always try your very best to face and solve your problem there n then. Haha, well, I’m not really fit to say this, because I always procrastinate and “only see to those emergency matters - those that I really hav no choice but to solve it” has been my policy. =P but i'm trying to change now because i realised certain aspects like health really cannot be ignored.

Anyway, it’s always a great reminder for u if u wanna improve urself to be a more efficient person. =)

That's all for now...

Happy New Year

2009-12-28T01:57:00.000-08:00

Well i know it's still a bit early for this post, but i'm afraid i would not hav time to update this long-deserted blog later, as today is my last day off.

Anyway, i would like to wish everyone a happy new year here. hopefully in the brand new year, it'll be a smooth sailing throughout for all of us. and for year 2010, i'm not gonna make any new year resolutions anymore. i mean, lets face it, i never keep to any resolution i made n so i think there's no need to waste my effort trying to figure out things that i probably will not achieve. however, that does not mean that i stop improving myself. i'll always keep trying to become a better n smarter person.

I realised that i've been sort of 'missing' for quite a long while. Sorry about that my friends. Indeed i hav been busy n when i managed to find time for myself, i often just ended up watching show or sleeping or just simply dreaming. It's not that u all r not important but i'm scared that the more i chat with u all, the more i'll miss the times we used to be together gossiping, having fun, talking nonsense... Now we could only meet once in 6 months, some annually, some i have not even seen for 2 years or more already. i just hope all of u r doing great, wherever u go n whatever u do.

A bit of update of my life: currently i'm in the 2nd year of the medical course. i've said byebye to anatomy(yay!), physiology n biochemistry(those r the first year subjects) n hello to pathology, pharmacology, microbiology n forensic medicine. hell, 2nd year's workload is definitely humongous compared to first year's. we hav to do tonnes of homework, attend boring lectures, study like mad, not to mention to complete a stupid mentored student project. sigh, life... it sure is a struggle for lazybums like me, especially the homework part. i've never been so diligent before in my life n yet my diligence is still nothing compared to others. to hardworkers: if u r wondering bout my degree of diligence, hehe, let me tell u, i'm not capable of being hardworking at all. maybe it's just 20% of yours? n to lazy ppl, high 5! we r one of a kind, n u can most probably understand how 'hardworking' i m. haha.

Here is something i would like to share: the law of attraction. if u read a book entitled 'the secret'(which i never did) or watched the movie, u'll know it. the law of attraction states that u will attract whatever that is in ur mind to u if u keep thinking of it. for example, u keep thinking very very hard that u will get a lot of money, the money will come to u. but, the same goes for the opposite. if u keep thinking hard that u do not want something to happen, that something will still happen as u fear.
to some extent, i find this law of attraction quite true n it really works(in an unexplained way). i'm not saying that u just hav to sit there n keep thinking of everything u want to be done. of course, u hav to do something urself for ur dreams to come true. the good that we could make out from this law is that we should always think of something we want n not waste time thinking of something not wanted.

Alright, there goes an update to clear the dust n spider webs here. I had better stop typing. Friends, i miss u all. Will see u all 2 months later(March). Take care. N wish u all a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Light n darkness. Which is faster?

2009-07-15T10:20:00.000-07:00

I was feeling bored seems like it has been ages since i last updated my blog. haha. well actually there's nothing to update. just wanna share a meaningful sentence here.
quoted from criminal minds:

they say light has the fastest speed in the universe, but light reaches every place only to find that darkness had conquered it first.

there'll always be something wrong before right comes. bad before good. failure before sucess. poor before wealthy. etc. it's the nature of life which cannot be defied...

right now i hope the darkness -- exam surrounding me end faster so that i can go back to my real home n play for one month. lol.

there. an update. hope it's thought-provoking. :)

Diamond and graphite

2009-03-20T05:28:00.000-07:00

Diamond and graphite r both made of carbon atoms, but y do their prices differ greatly? Who doesn't like diamonds, n who would hav wanted to buy n treasure graphite?

Well, the answer is really simple. Diamond is rare compared to the abundant graphite, which makes it so precious n expensive. Diamond is formed under a very high pressure, while graphite results from low pressure environment. Diamond can be turned into graphite under high temperature, but graphite cannot be transformed into diamond.

Likewise, compare diamond n graphite to human beings. if u can withstand high pressure n turn out to be just fine, u'll be a diamond loved n appreciated by other ppl. but beware, if u r too arrogant, always causing ppl's blood boiling(this is where the high temperature comes into picture), ur value may drop n u'll turn into graphite. if u already succumb to high pressure in the first place, don't bother to be a diamond. u just can't make it. cruel but true.

I want to be a diamond. :)

ps: pls pardon me for the simple english n short post. long time no write. gotta clean the rust in my brains d. hehe.

Living life to the fullest

2009-02-16T02:38:00.000-08:00

Being back to Malaysia is all bout enjoying! I've been back for more than 1 week n all i did was eat, sleep n play. eat n sleep is more for the first 3 days of my return, the rest of the days i went to kl, met up with some intec friends, mmmc friends n also some of my old 5.0 classmates.
The only fun part of my kl trip is singing k(3 times in 4 days!) n playing cards. i'm glad that i went for this trip although i din get to shop cos i got to gamble!!! there's no kaki at all at sp(what a sad fact).... the reason i din get to shop is cos the hotel we stayed is near area of sungei wang, times square etc . i'm not a big fan of sungei wang n i dont really like times square either. the only place suitable for shopping there is pavilion, but it's kinda far n at the moment u actually reach there, u'll be half dead d.

things that sadly i did not get to do:
1. shopping
2. watch a nice movie
3. eat really good food(example: italianies, pasta de gohan, or even dragon-i) because times square n sungei wang simply dont hav these places
however, i ate kim gary for twice, if u want me to 勉强 consider that as REALLY good food(it's good, but not THAT good)
n the only heavenly food that i ate was ice cream fondue(found only at pavilion's baskin robbin, HIGHLY RECOMMENDED)

being the so-called gambling queen, i play cards every night, hehe. this year i hav no luck i guess, lost bout rm40+ at the first night itself. but no matter what, i'm still happy cos i can gamble, n the person who won the money actually use the money to subsidize for singing k at redbox. the other nights my friends hav no money d so we just play cards, din gamble.

well, some ppl said they r gonna use this 1 month holiday study but obviously that will not be me. i felt that i deserve to just relax during this holiday. dont care bout the other stuffs. there's no point torturing myself when i know that i'm gonna be tortured for 6 months in less than 3 weeks later. so, living life to the fullest during this holiday = eat, sleep, play, waste money =P

Some quick outdated updates

2009-01-19T09:38:00.000-08:00

can't believe that this is my first post in the brand new year. usually ppl start with their resolutions. i'm done with making resolutions because i know that i wont follow those stupid plans. i'm not a rule-adherent person n i dont like to follow plans, timetables etc. i prefer flexibility n spontaneous stuffs. there is more fun. unpredictable. full of surprises.
and now for the updates:
i've shifted to new hostel, which is kinda expensive, but it's very near my lecture hall n has a small kitchen sink, so i guess the pros did outweigh the con(trying to convince myself that i did not spend too much money on accommodation, hehe).
i'm going back to malaysia on 6th feb, reaching on the 7th, holiday for a month! yay! can't wait for it. but sadly before that, i gotta endure the following torturous 16 days full of study, tests n exams. n this aging brain of mine sadly doesnt help by being less accommodative with memories. n the only compensatory mechanism i hav is to pray more(to study more is impossible, for non-medical-students' information, n for me, to study everything for once is already a big accomplishment!). haha.
we do hav a day off for chu 1. it's not good in a way that we hav to rush our syllabus more. sigh. but anyway i'm still grateful for that break. seriously need it.
recently i learned in nutrition lecture that eating vegetables interferes with the absorption of zinc ion n fat-soluble vitamin, hence giving me another reason to not like eating vegetables. hehe. i know it's lame, cos it's the only disadvantage of eating vegetables.
it's kinda abrupt to stop here, but i shall stop now anyway, dont wanna doze off in class tomorrow. will continue next time. to william n pat, hope u all r enjoying urselves at deustchland. i'll definitely go visit u all someday. hehe. dont forget to treat me when the time comes, as promised. =)

another wasted night

Merry Christmas!!!

2008-12-24T09:46:00.000-08:00

i've removed this post because i think it kinda doesnt sound like me in the complaining part.

retype: this is the pic i managed to grab from friendster, it certainly does not hav all my good friends in it, but it's the best pic i could find(cos i seldom upload photos, lazy, hehe)
I miss all my friends(sp, intec etc). I'll always treasure our friendship. Miss those days when we hang out together.
Merry christmas n happy new year in advance! =) =)

Results

2008-12-16T07:29:00.000-08:00

Got my first block exam results today. At MMMC(melaka manipal medical college) here it's very scary, they paste the everyone's result details on the board. so we'll know who got distinction, who failed, who is the top student etc etc.
anyway i'm not the top student la, of course. hehe. din study finish for the exam, so din expect very good results also. i'm very happy that i passed my anatomy, which i thought i've flunked it. also, i'm happy that the marks i got for physiology n biochemistry actually achieve my target. dont wanna mention my marks here. it's kinda embarassing. overall i'm contented but i'm not very proud of the results. i hav to stop procrastinating from today onwards! i just cant seem to find the spirit to study. the spirit has been long lost since form 3 i think. it's just very difficult for me to study everyday. lack of motivation. but this has to stop now. i wanna be better. i need to be better. i need to escape from laziness. wish me luck!

Not exactly an update

2008-12-09T09:26:00.000-08:00

My dear friend Joanne has come back safely fom bangalore n bought me a gift! How thoughtful. I'm so happy. THANKS A MILLION TIONG TIONG! I love the gift. I actually hav nothing to update but just feel so bored n thought i ought to write something. hehe. couldn't think of anything to crap already. gonna sleep. zzzzzzz..... :)

2.5 months

2008-11-29T02:43:00.000-08:00

That's right. It has been 2.5 months. Everything past in a blur. Things just come n go. Just like that, block 1 is over. N immediately after the 1st block exam, IMMEDIATELY, classes for block 2 started. No relaxation, no resting, no relief, nothing. We hav to just keep moving on. It's life. Not just any life. The life of a medical student. Full of sacrifices, sufferings n stress. It's the life i've chosen. To myself n all who chose this course: Just hang in there. We'll make it through.

Relieved?

2008-10-31T08:28:00.000-07:00

Another anatomy test had just passed.... what a relief! but there's never really time for rest, taking the medical course is just like hercules fighting the nine-headed monster which its name is Hydra if i'm not mistaken; as soon as u chop down one head, another two heads come out, n the heads just keep growing out non-stop. likewise, one test down, two more tests or pbl presentation will come out, n it's never-ending. sometimes i just wish time would stop for a while. it would be really great if i can just relax n do nothing for just this while.
now almost every time before n after test i'll look like crap, cos i dont get enough sleep. i wanna sleep for many hours in a day! sigh. n it dawned on me that my block exam is coming in 3 weeks' time, which is horrible! again sigh.
longing for my holiday in feb.
always sighing these days.
feel like i'm slowly disappearing in crowd(direct translation of 人间蒸发) cos dont hav time or too exhausted to keep in touch with ppl.
trying very hard to keep in contact with all my friends.
miss hanging out with friends.
miss playing poker n mahjong.
miss wasting time n lazing around without feeling guilty.
miss mathematics.
miss everything i used to do.
miss everybody that i hang out with.
dread studying everyday.(though until now i dont really do so, hehe)
don't wanna be zombified.
i want my life back! life at manipal simply isn't a life.
i'll be strong. n i'll survive. life goes on.

Just a clarification

2008-10-27T01:04:00.000-07:00

for the last post, i wasnt talking bout a particular someone. it's just the way ppl r in this world. n i just wrote it simply to release my tension. hav been under hell lotsa stress lately. that's all. n to all of u, we as human beings r never perfect. so ya, each n everyone of us is both the bully n the victim, including those who r extremely friendly n harmless. the difference is only whether we r aware that we r bullying or being bullied. well, the truth is, when u r with someone weaker, gentler, n more submissive u'll tend to be the bully n when u r with someone which looks stern n agressive u wouldnt try to buly that person, would u? so now u know my last post referred to everyone in this world, every single one, including myself. haha. hope i made it clear, i wasnt angry at someone or something. that's all for this week. gotta get back to my anatomy study. the test is on this wed n i still hav 100+ pages to study. bye.

forever stressed

Enough is enough

2008-10-25T08:22:00.000-07:00

just finished watching grey's anatomy season 2 episode 2, which the title happened to be "Enough is Enough". n it suddenly inspired me to write this blog.

enough is enough. everything has its limit. for example, patience. some ppl hav no patience at all. when they ask u something, they expect to get answer from u immediately. n if u fail to do so, they'll be angry. that's not all. they'll keep bothering u until u giv the answer. but if u reverse the situation, when u ask them something, they wont bother to answer u in time. n if u try to ask again after a long time they dont giv response, it's them again who lose their patience, be very angry n ask u to be patient. these ppl r the inconsiderate one. the worse is, they always judge ppl but fail to see that they themselves r just the same, or could be even worse. they r selfish, always make ppl to giv in to their needs. they expect ppl to help them but refuse to help, or pretend not to know or even hide themselves when ppl need their help.

u might think, it's their victims who r stupid. if u dont giv in to those inconsiderate ppl, they wont get to be themselves. right. i can tell u, i m often one of those victims. now tell me, m i stupid? no. then what is the reason that i m submissive although ppl sometimes r inconsiderate towards me? simple. whatever things done to me hav not crossed the line yet. the limit is not reached. the volcano is still sleeping. one day, some day, when the threshold is reached, boom! beware of that day. it could always be tomorrow.

on the other hand, sometimes i could be the bully, the inconsiderate person. sometimes u cant help it, u hav to be one. it's either to be inconsiderate or to be the victim. sometimes u dont realise it, n u suddenly become one. sometimes u know that u r inconsiderate, n u just enjoy to be one. it's always a pleasure to get things done for u or to manipulate ppl. but u hav to be careful. the limit is always there.

so, which type r u? the bully or the victim? i m both. enough of crapping here. everything has its limit. enough is enough. one day, the most timid person in the world may get fed up n stand against the bully. when is that day? who knows. i should get back to my grey's anatomy drama. enough is enough.

Tired

2008-10-14T00:34:00.000-07:00

just finished my anatomy PBL presentation today. relieved? no. what a disaster i've made. n also two more r coming. that's not all. physiology test is on sat. n biochemistry test will be soon as well. feel so exhausted. spent the night before saturating(n almost blowing) my brain with the PBL presentation that din even fetch me good marks. feel like sleeping, but piles of never-ending work r awaiting. studied finish today, tomorrow there r always new things to learn. but the thing is, i havent really picked up the study-everyday habit, hence the accumulation of work. sigh. can only blame myself. life has to go on. hope i'll be strong n still be sane at the end of 5 years. but if i do become insane, dear friends, pls dont abandon me, lol. i wont do any harm to u. hehe. enough of crapping. from now onwards there'll be less n less , simply cos i cant afford to waste time writing blog. it would hav been better spent on sleeping, n watching series(as i dont hav to use my brain compared to writing blog), so pls understand. thanks for reading.

Life in India

2008-10-07T23:02:00.000-07:00

I feel like i owe u all an update, hehe, so here it goes....
First, here's the answer to zhao ming's question: we do hav esprit here, but only in the big city like Bangalore which is 10 hours from Manipal if we take a bus.
Now, let's proceed to the conditions here:
1. the roads r very bumpy, so we dont really like to travel here
2. there's dust everywhere.... EVERYWHERE!
3. no food here can remind me of malaysian food; it just makes me miss malaysian food even more
4. my accommodation: a room with attached bathroom in a hostel
5. the laundry service here sucks, the clothes u sent may return smelly
6. i always thought that only malaysian ppl r inefficient; it seems that indians r just the same! (except for the photocopy service, they r really fast! it's like double the speed of photocopy workers in malaysia)
7. there r frequent power cuts(at least 2 times a day)

moving on to classes, the subjects for my first block(1 block is 10 weeks) r anatomy, biochemistry & physiology. i hav lectures 6 days a week(sun off), hav dissection class every morning(except tues cos it's in the afternoon, thurs n sat). the cadaver on my table is 2 years old.
sometimes i hav PBL(problem based learning) class n sometimes SDL(self directed learning). once a week i hav a boring PPD class(personal n professional development) which is similar to the moral class we used to take back in malaysia. i just hope we wont need to do assignments n presentations for it.
Thinking back, i kinda miss intec life where u can sleep or play with handphone in the class, sit wherever u want in class, sometimes can ponteng without producing an mc(just need to act like u r sick, lol), sometimes classes r cancelled n end at 10am then can go shopping, can wear just jeans n t shirts for lecture etc etc. I also miss akasia where there's a kitchen in the house n a place to hang clothes if u wash on ur own, a badminton court to exercise, washing machines to wash clothes easily.
I miss my kfc, i miss sunway pyramid, one u, i miss singing k, hanging out with friends, playing cards n mahjong n rotting at home. Well, i'm not saying that i've chosen the wrong path, i know that it wont be a bed of roses since the moment i made my decision, so i guess i can't really complain much. just hope that these 2.5 years will end quickly so that i can leave this place asap.

Checklist

2008-08-22T00:57:00.000-07:00

The time is ticking away n now my enjoyable days r gone. It's time to start packing!
First thing first, i need to create a checklist>>>

1. Clothes
2. Milo
3. Instant noodles
4. Toilet Papers
5. Laptop
6. Mobile phone
7. bedsheets
8. poker cards
9. external hard drives
10. photostated important documents
11. money
12. sportshoes, formal shoes

So far these r the things that i could think of. Any suggestions n reminders? pls leave ur comment. thanks for ur help! appreciate it.

Tagged

2008-07-25T01:18:00.001-07:00

LOL! I also do not know why Joanne tagged me. -_- Now I have to finish the tag as well. Haha! Never mind la. It can serve as an update too! Life in SP is SO boring. There is nothing to update about. Haiz... I might as well stop whining and start doing my tag!

7 Facts About Me:

1. A perfectionist.
2. Like to gamble... a lot!
3. A risk taker(which leads to 2)
4. A peace lover(i dont like to be involved in an argument)
5. Like gossiping when i'm superbored(now u can tell whether i'm bored or not)
6. A lazy person(which explains y my intro is similar to joanne's, haha)
7. Do not easily speak to strangers

7 Things That Scares Me:

1. Cockroaches or any weird insects that can fly
2. Losing myself(my personalities, i mean)
3. No money
4. Ghosts(i know it's stupid, but yea, i'm very very very afraid of ghosts)
5. Become stupid
6. Darkness
7. Being in a place surrounded by backstabbers

7 Songs Playing In My Head Lately:

1. 那年夏天宁静的海（王欣凌）
2. 安静(Jay Chou)
3. 心愿便利贴（命中注定我爱你的片尾曲）
4. 退后(Jay Chou)
5. 甜甜的(Jay Chou)
6. 如果你也听说（张惠妹）
7. 不想懂得（张韶涵）

7 Valuable Things/People In My Life:

1. Success
2. My intelligence
3. Myself
4. Family and friends
5. Money
6. Religion
7. My toy(i hav many but just that particular one, some of u may know which one it is, can't sleep without it)

7 "First Time" In My Life:

1. Got first place in the whole form (1997)
2. Sang karaoke (2005)
3. Spent RM63.80 to eat at Shogun(a Japanese buffet restaurant at Sunway Pyramid) (2007)
4. Spent RM300 to buy a watch (2008)
5. Being isolated by classmates for a reason that doesn't exist (1997)
6. Being so uncompetitive in academics(due to my laziness, n i regret that) (2006-2008)
7. Got tagged (at this moment!)

7 Words Or Things That I Am Used To Saying/Doing:

1. 好笑!
2. Faint!
3. Shit la!
4. What the heck?
5. Damn it(I only say it to myself, therefore u all wont notice this)
6. Cho miang cua nie?(fuchow)
7. Always go for red colour when buying things

7 People I Tag:

I'm kind, therefore i wont tag anyone. Plus, there aren't really many people who know bout this blog of mine. So, the tag ends here.

最'蛇'之人排行榜

2008-07-24T22:24:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating for such a long long time, but here is the post as i promised.

经过我在INTEC两年来的分析, 以下是本BLOG最'蛇'之人排行榜（名次是对地方不对人, 因为环境对人格的影响很大, 大家日后要小心提防）。

1. 槟城 (100%, 没有一个是不会耍手段的)
2. 柔佛, KL, 马六甲 (80%)
3. 吉打, TERENGGANU, SIBU 等其他地方 (20%, 我不否认其中一个是我)

何谓朋友？说得难听一点，朋友就是互相利用！But if it involves backstabbing, i dont think we can call that a 朋友.
这些是事实, 并不代表本作者的立场, 希望大家见仁见智, 千万不要吃 CILI。(siapa yg makan cili dialah yg rasa pedasnya) and no offense to those coming from places mentioned above.

p.s. actually i hav a lot to say, but i'm very very very very lazy to type it out, so that's all for now.

Rely on Maths lecturer? Think twice!

2008-03-12T03:35:00.000-07:00

I was disappointed with my Maths lecturer...... If a student did this mistake, i would hav forgiven the person but this is a maths lecturer! The test question that she discussed with us goes like this:(not exactly but the idea is the same)
Line 1 & line 2 intersect at point B. Point A is on line 1 while point C is on line 2. ABCD is a parallelogram.(also the numerical info is given but there's no need to mention it since we wont use it here)
(i) Show that AB=BC.
(ii) Find the coordinate of point D.

After doing the 1st part of the question, my lecturer suggested the following diagram for part (ii).
She said, 'there r 4 possibilities of how u could draw point D but we'll just draw one as a guide.'

My goodness! Nearly fainted when she proposed that diagram. But i thought, maybe she just was just careless. So i kept quiet n let it be... However, it was noticed by charles who then pointed it out(say loud loud some more), "teacher, point D is supposed to be at the other side!(he meant solution 1)". But to my surprise, she said, "as i've told u just now, there r 4 possibilities of how u could draw point D n this is one of them. of course u can draw that way too. but we'll discuss this diagram according to my diagram."

YES, THERE R 4 DIAGRAM OF SOLUTIONS TO POINT D BUT THE ABOVE ONE IS DEFINITELY NOT ONE OF THEM! The solutions r as the following:

I kept quiet for the second time. I know she wasn't gonna admit that she was wrong. But Sze Chiang n Charles just couldn't get over it n they argued with her AGAIN. My jaw dropped when she said, "It is not necessary to follow the order of ABCD when u label a polygon." This STUPID statement came out from a Maths lecturer! She meant the diagram below is absolutely correct!Hell, it is altogether WRONG! and a HUGE MISTAKE to be made by a lecturer! A person good in Maths will never draw it this way, simply because it is WRONG! In the question part (i), it's already mentioned that AB and BC r the sides of the parallelogram, so how on earth could we obtain the above diagram? Another argument point: if she had proposed point D to be as in her diagram, ABCD should be this:
Let me remind u the definition of a parallelogram. According to Oxford dictionary, parallelogram is a flat shape with 4 straight sides, the opposite sides being parallel and equal to each other. And this is what the dictionary showed for parallelogram(the middle one):That z-shaped thing was not even close to a polygon, let alone a parallelogram!
At the end of the day, we went back late, thanks to Charles n Sze Chiang who never gav up(gav up in the end too) explaining to the lecturer. It dawned on me that she was not careless; she didn't even know that she was wrong, and the worse is she insisted she was right. All the while i've been keeping quiet cos i certainly don't want to catch the bus late!
This is the forever only correct way to label a polygon:
Well, the conclusion is, she was wrong, n point D can't be there as she proposed. But i could not tolerate with such mistake. How could a lecturer teach her student to label a parallelogram that way? Ugh.... U may think that i'm too emo, but i refuse to let ppl insult my beloved Mathematics!

German Week

2008-03-12T00:40:00.000-07:00

Hullo! Sorry for not updating for a long time. Not havin a laptop n a good internet connection at akasia makes regular updates impossible! Anyway, I went for the German Week organised by ALG students n here r some photos:
Before going to INTEC:
Look at our depressed faces! What happen? We hav been waiting for more than 45 minutes for the bus! It was awfully long n we din hav anything to do, so we just played around with my digicam. Well, we ended up hailing taxi to go there... what a pity!
But i managed to capture a good pic of Joanne(can b used as her singing album cover d, lol!)>>>
At last, we reached INTEC, already sweating due to the hot weather. Of course i know the venue of this supposedly grand event, but when i look at these:
What? Did they expect the visitors to possess superhuman eyesight? u can only see it because i zoomed my digicam to the maximum! what i had expected was a proper n noticeable signboard... Never mind, i thought, maybe they were in a rush n just simply put it on.
So we continued until we reach the german block.
Still ok, I thought. At least they did something to beautify the place. But when I see this>>>
I nearly fainted! THIS ugly thing(sorry that i've to say it n i know who did it), was not supposed to show up in a grand event! It was so horrible. Even if they hav to write it, they could hav asked william to write, at least his writing is way better than this!
Moving on to the inside,
Pat posing for my camera. She was so happy to see us here(we were the only non-ALG there)!

The German Week T-shirt. Not bad!

William busy with presentation thingy.

We had fun eating the german snacks.

sausages

salad(i think)

After that we listened to a presentation by german exchange student.

Took some pics of nice photos in his presentation, hehe.

The next day i went alone(as the others couldn't wake up early n also the one that could wake up early wanna study) to INTEC to watch barfuss, which is a nice movie. I wanna watch all the other movies, but couldn't afford to waste too much of my time; trial was just around the corner. Ich denke das ist alles for my german week visit. Overall it's just so-so, probably due to the insufficient fund INTEC provided.

The start of something NEW

2008-01-01T03:36:00.000-08:00

Hello everybody, it's a brand new year 2008! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
So what do ppl usually do when it's the start of another year? Resolutions! Alright, i admit that so far i've never really done what i resolved to do but still, there's chance that i might change this year, right?(though i knew that i'm just bluffing myself, lol) Ok, so here goes nothing....

2008 RESOLUTIONS:
1. to be more intelligent
2. to get an excellent result in my A-Levels
3. to be healthy and happy always
4. to enjoy life to the fullest as possible as this is the last year i can do it(i.e. eat more, sleep more, play more)
5. to be an overall better(considerate, wise, patient etc) person(i doubt it, hehe)
6. to be a better paparazzo(of course! it's very important!)
7. to hav luck on my side all the time
8. to hav lotsa money
9. to be more diligent(yes! i'll try my very best to say bye bye to laziness!)

It dawned on me that i actually had spent year 2007 fairly luxuriously. I'd been playing around n even got to tour europe! not bad eh? it'll be my best memories ever!
Hopefully this year would be a better year for all of us. Nevertheless it's gonna be full of partings as most of us r gonna fly in aug/sept(some already did).....
Anyway, saying hi to 2008, no more procrastination, no more looking back into the past, the only thing that we can n should do is keep our heads up n face the challenges await boldly!

An apology

2007-12-28T08:37:00.000-08:00

I think I won't write bout my trip in Melaka already, kinda lazy, sorry bout that. If anyone wanna read it, go to http://elississ-joanne.blogspot.com/ to view it. It's an extremely perfect description from her which I think I could add no more(take the compliment, Joanne - i seldom praise ppl, lol!). Anyway I would like to thank each and everyone who was with me during the trip for giving me such wonderful memories: (these names r in no special order) Joanne, Cheng Ing, Felicia, Sun Quan, Zheng Ling, Zhao Ming, Kah Jien, Siew Ling, Hong Guan. I think that's all, did i miss somebody out? N bout my SP hospital attachment, there's nothing much to write also, but i'll still post it up next time. For the time being, i'm gonna sleep. Bye bye!

Updated, but outdated news

2007-12-28T08:29:00.000-08:00

Hehe, here is some updated news. It should be published sometime 2 weeks ago but i kinda forgot, so it's considered outdated d. Anyway, here's it: ACTP student copyKate's JPA scholarship has been terminated. The reason? I think u ppl already knew it, so i wont mention here. hahaha.

A Trip to Perlis

2007-12-24T05:57:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, my family and i went to perlis because we needed to send my sis back to work. Hence we took this opportunity to hav fun there! Now guess where did we go? Here's the hint:

It's the entrance.

A zoo? No no.... guess again.

Alright, i know u all wouldn't get it right. Here's the answer:

Well, I wont write much in this blog. Pictures speak better than a thousand words, haha. So enjoy viewing these photos.

First, we saw some snakes kept in aquarium.

An anaconda...

What do they eat? Rats! N they r cute little white mice!

A snake eating the poor rat...

Next, we moved on to see four-legged snakes and tortoises. I couldn't capture the picture of tortoise because it's too small.

I dunno how to name this, forgot to look at its label... but my mum said she read something like 'giant squirrel' on the label.

Then the interesting part comes.

Look carefully in the water. Thinking that it's a log? Absolutely not! It's a crocodile! I even managed to capture a video of a crocodile eating a dead monkey! Gross.... Anyway the I'll post up the video next time.

Another photo of another crocodile

After that, there were some monkeys n iguanas.

These monkeys r red-faced. Sorry, my photo is not that clear, but it was my best shot already after snapping so many of the two monkeys.

This is what we call the 'red ass' monkey! Hahaha!

White-faced monkey

An iguana

Finally our trip came to an end. Though it's not that thrilling(and the farm stinks, lol), at least it's better than staying at home n being so bored for so many days. That's all for now.

白袍

2007-12-16T06:22:00.000-08:00

这是我第一次用华文写blog, 哈哈!

穿白袍的日子终于在11月22日结束
虽然只是短短三天
却留下一些回忆
不至于美好
但至少是一种体验

起初还以为
穿白袍
是件辛苦, 麻烦的事
可是当我真正穿上时
却有种莫名的兴奋
觉得真的好象已经是医生了
嘿嘿
这种感觉还真不错!

原来
穿白袍
真的可以让人体验
当医生的感觉
尤其是那种
身负重任感
而且
穿着白袍
在这么大的医院里
到处走动
觉得很威风
有被人重视的感觉
很爽
我甚至还被误以为
是真正的医生
被病人叫了声doctor
更爽!

穿白袍的生活
一直是我的梦想
有成就感
有挑战性
被人抬举
我喜欢!

Attachment at UM hospital

2007-12-14T02:31:00.000-08:00

There'll be another post in Chinese about this attachment but not the translation of this post. Hope u'll enjoy reading it!

Day 1
The 20(only 3 chinese; the rest... well, you know...) of us reached at 8.30am, searching for Cik Intan who was responsible to bring us around the hospital. She looked at us disapprovingly, "where are your labcoats?" Ooops, I didn't have one, because nobody told me that we needed to bring one! Luckily I was not the only one who didn't have labcoat at the moment. My friend, apparently, did not know about that too. I was so worried that we would be sent back. Well, we were fortunate enough to be just warned by her. "No labcoat tomorrow, no follow!"
After taking attendance, our tour started at trauma & emergency department. As the name suggests, it is for all sorts of cases, especially the emergency ones, e.g. food poisoning, falling from building, gunshot wound and labour etc. It is further divided to 4 zones; the patients that need medical attention immediately, i.e. really really emergency cases will be located at the resuscitation hall(zone 1). The others, depending on the level of seriousness of the injury, will be located at zone 2, 3, 4 respectively. Due to it's only early in the morning, there weren't many cases yet. We just watched an unconscious old man being resuscitated in zone 1. That reminds me of some scenes in Grey's Anatomy.
In just an hour, we finished visiting the department. We went back to Cik Intan again. I thought we would immediately be brought to another department. Instead, she said that we were 'lucky' that there was free breakfast for us - a seminar was cancelled and the food prepared for the participants was given to us in order not to waste it. Hah! What a luck! What shocked me the most was her attitude. "Makan-makan dan rehat-rehat dulu ya! Kita start pada pukul 2." My God! It was only 10 something and after barely doing anything we had to rest for 4 hours?
She is really some MALAYsian!
However, we soon finished the food and seeing us have nothing to do there, she finally gave in and brought us to see a high-ranked nurse. The first thing she did when she saw us was to ask,' What is your objective?' (Hello??? Can't you see that we are a bunch of A Level students and had a letter saying that we had to do an attachment here? So what do you think is our objective?) Ok, fair enough, somebody answered 'to observe and experience the life of a doctor'. But she seemed not to be satisfied by the answer. Never mind, forget about it. There, we had a lecture on how the hospital works and some stuffs. Then the nurse divided us into groups and we were to go to different departments and switch with other groups the next day. Suddenly, someone asked, "What about the students taking pharmacy? Do they have to go to these departments too? Aren't we supposed to just stay at the pharmacy?" Well done! All this while the pharmacists-to-be just sat there and kept quite like mouses until groups divided and everyone ready to go. Now we had to be regrouped again, thanks to them. 4 of them were immediately sent to the pharmacy department, leaving the only Chinese - me, among 16 of us.
My group went to the Obstetric and Gynaecology(O&G) department. Nothing interesting happened. I hated it when the nurse there asked again, "What is your objective?" (Come on, does objective really matter that much to you?) We watched a demonstration of new improved blood collecting syringe and got a free pen, spoke to patients, medical student, house officer, medical officer and specialist. Also, we managed to observe how an ultrasound scan is done. We could see a cyst near the ovary(not very clearly). And we managed to convince the specialist to let us watch her performing surgery the next day. Yipee! Not bad for the first day!

Day 2
Even though it was only early in the morning, we already had an exciting experience by going into the operation theatre. We watched the removal of a large pedunculated fibroid(kinda like cyst attached to the uterus). It was really large! After that, to our disappointment, we had to go back to the same department instead of going elsewhere! It somehow ruined my excitement of the morning. We just walked up and down and observed a doctor diagnosing her patients.
Eventually we couldn't take it anymore; we fled to another department ourselves(nobody really bothered us anyway)>> the medical department. Here they accommodate patients suffering diseases associated to gastrointestinal tract, chest and kidney. We followed the specialist around; she kindly and patiently explained the conditions of some patients to us.
There was a Chinese male patient which was admitted without his family. He seemed to have Alzheimer because whatever we asked him, he would answer with something else and kept repeating the same thing. At first the specialist thought it was the problem of language and asked me to do some translation. Well, he turned out to be a banana! haha! I tried hokkien, cantonese, mandarin.... None of them worked. He spoke only english. And when the specialist examined him by touching his stomach, he exclaimed "Oh my God!"and laughed. Maybe he thought she was seducing him. Haha! It was so funny!

Day 3
We went to the paediatric ward. It accommodates mostly children with cancer undergoing chemotheraphy. During lunch time, they suddenly wanted to go out to eat at A&W. I went there Zarul's car. A&W's food was not that nice. I still like KFC the best. After lunch, we went back to the ward again but did nothing much there. We went back earlier than the first 2 days, at around 3pm.

Day 4
We were taken to the forensic department by Cik Intan. The person in charge took us inside to look around and showed us the bodies after post-mortem. First, he showed a died-not-long-ago body. It was nothing actually, just that the body was stitched back already after autopsy was done and became black. Next shown were a body of 2004 and one 2006. Creepy! The bodies could not be disposed yet because they were under police cases. The was some stinky smell already and some fungus grown on the bodies.
After that we had nothing to do, Cik Intan brought us to visit the place where all the clothes worn by patients, used by doctors during surgery etc were washed. Not that we are interested or we are going do work like that also... But since we had nowhere to go, we just pretended to be interested to look around. Then someone suggested that we go to the psychiatric ward. Fine, we went there, but again, nothing interesting to see.
This day was the day we went back the earliest - at lunchtime! I didn't really go back, I went to mid-valley with Yea Kee and had fun there, hehe....

Day 5
We were supposed to have the attachment for 5 days but due to the laziness of the nurse and Cik Intan, the 5th day was cancelled. So I went back to shah alam that day.

During this attachment, I've learned that communication is very important. We must communicate well with patients in order to make accurate diagnosis; we must communicate well with nurses so that we won't be isolated and ill-treated(never, never offend a nurse!); we must be good with the specialists so that our life won't be miserable! Besides, I find that we need to equipped ourselves with more medical terms to understand what the specialists and doctors are saying. Also, the hardest thing we face in the medical line is not death; it is when we have to break the news to the deceased's family. I too realised that some of the doctors-to-be are not certain of their ambitions yet. Hopefully they'll make up their mind soon because it is a pain to do something you do not have passion in. Das ist alles for this post.

ILL

2007-11-06T03:20:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling so helpless now
Why do i allow such disease
to infect me?
It is incurable
It attacks at all time
and it mercilessly spread
faster than you ever thought
Once you allow it into you
there's no way
of getting rid of it
The best that you can do
is just to control it
from spreading ridiculously fast
Scary, it is
Cruel, it is
Quick, it is
I do not want it
I wish to avoid it
But it's too late
I've been infected by Leizee Nurse disease
Help me!
Nobody can
I need a jab of D-termination
I need a jab of D-ligence
So that i can be strong
to fight it
Hopefully
in this battle
I'll be the ultimate winner
I'll be the true survivor
I'll never be
a weakling again
ever

Hunters

2007-10-27T01:25:00.000-07:00

Criminal Minds Season 2 episode unknown~~~
Ppl were hunted like animals by 2 maniacs; they used arrows to kill the ppl.
In the end when the case was solved, the sole survivor asked Prentiss: " How could they do such a thing like this?" What Prentiss replied was "Because they do not think the way we do."
However, when on the plane, Morgan saw her troubled look.
Morgan: Hey, u look troubled.
Prentiss: When the victim asked me 'How could they do such a thing like this?', I answered 'Because they do not think the way we do.'
Morgan: That's right. They don't think like us. So, what's the problem?
Prentiss: But when i think back, how much different are we from them? I mean, we do this kind of job everyday. We hunt these people, like they hunt their victims.
Morgan: The difference is, we don't kill people. We hunt for killers. That is what make us good people.
This makes me ponder, when we judge a person, how different r we from the person?
How do we know we r not like the person?
If u think that a person is not that simple, how much simpler r u? Because, only the not-simple people will recognise those alike with them.
So, next time, before criticising a person, look into ur ownself first. Deep in our hearts, we r all alike.

Shocking!

2007-10-06T00:57:00.000-07:00

The following news is encrypted in numbers. Pls decipher it urself. Assistance will not be provided.
Note: // = , ; /// = .
News #1:
10.21.19.20/18.5.3.5.14.20.12.25//9.14/25.15.21.14.7/14/19.15/
12.9.1514/2.18.15.11.5/21.16///20.8.5/18.5.1.19.15.14?
21.14.11.14.15.23.14//2.21.20/9/23.9.12.12/6.9.14.4/15.21.20/
19.15.15.14///
News #2:
5.9.18.5.12.1.22/9.19/20.18.25.9.14.7/20.15/2.5/1/
16.12.1.25.7.9.18.12/8.5.18.5///1.14/1.3.20.16/10.21.14.9.15.18/
9.19/8.5.18/3.21.18.18.5.14.20/20.1.18.7.5.20/15.15.23///
20.8.5.25/18/15.6.20.5.14/19.5.5.14/20.15.7.5.20.8.5.18/1.20/
3.15.13.16/12.1.2//1.21.19.13.1.20/3.1.6.5/14/1.3.20.16/
2.12.15.3.11///
That's all for now. Keep updated for the latest INTEC news that can b only obtained here.

My New Blog

2007-09-07T07:16:00.000-07:00

It has been some time since i've written my last blog, n finally i find myself feeling like wanting to write blog again, so here i m. pls bear with my sometimes boring blog as i've lost touch of writing interesting pieces lately, now i'm on the quest to search for my inspiration again.....