Merry Christmas!!!

i've removed this post because i think it kinda doesnt sound like me in the complaining part.

retype: this is the pic i managed to grab from friendster, it certainly does not hav all my good friends in it, but it's the best pic i could find(cos i seldom upload photos, lazy, hehe)
I miss all my friends(sp, intec etc). I'll always treasure our friendship. Miss those days when we hang out together.
Merry christmas n happy new year in advance! =) =)

Results

Got my first block exam results today. At MMMC(melaka manipal medical college) here it's very scary, they paste the everyone's result details on the board. so we'll know who got distinction, who failed, who is the top student etc etc.
anyway i'm not the top student la, of course. hehe. din study finish for the exam, so din expect very good results also. i'm very happy that i passed my anatomy, which i thought i've flunked it. also, i'm happy that the marks i got for physiology n biochemistry actually achieve my target. dont wanna mention my marks here. it's kinda embarassing. overall i'm contented but i'm not very proud of the results. i hav to stop procrastinating from today onwards! i just cant seem to find the spirit to study. the spirit has been long lost since form 3 i think. it's just very difficult for me to study everyday. lack of motivation. but this has to stop now. i wanna be better. i need to be better. i need to escape from laziness. wish me luck!

Not exactly an update

My dear friend Joanne has come back safely fom bangalore n bought me a gift! How thoughtful. I'm so happy. THANKS A MILLION TIONG TIONG! I love the gift. I actually hav nothing to update but just feel so bored n thought i ought to write something. hehe. couldn't think of anything to crap already. gonna sleep. zzzzzzz..... :)

2.5 months

That's right. It has been 2.5 months. Everything past in a blur. Things just come n go. Just like that, block 1 is over. N immediately after the 1st block exam, IMMEDIATELY, classes for block 2 started. No relaxation, no resting, no relief, nothing. We hav to just keep moving on. It's life. Not just any life. The life of a medical student. Full of sacrifices, sufferings n stress. It's the life i've chosen. To myself n all who chose this course: Just hang in there. We'll make it through.

Relieved?

Another anatomy test had just passed.... what a relief! but there's never really time for rest, taking the medical course is just like hercules fighting the nine-headed monster which its name is Hydra if i'm not mistaken; as soon as u chop down one head, another two heads come out, n the heads just keep growing out non-stop. likewise, one test down, two more tests or pbl presentation will come out, n it's never-ending. sometimes i just wish time would stop for a while. it would be really great if i can just relax n do nothing for just this while.
now almost every time before n after test i'll look like crap, cos i dont get enough sleep. i wanna sleep for many hours in a day! sigh. n it dawned on me that my block exam is coming in 3 weeks' time, which is horrible! again sigh.
longing for my holiday in feb.
always sighing these days.
feel like i'm slowly disappearing in crowd(direct translation of 人间蒸发) cos dont hav time or too exhausted to keep in touch with ppl.
trying very hard to keep in contact with all my friends.
miss hanging out with friends.
miss playing poker n mahjong.
miss wasting time n lazing around without feeling guilty.
miss mathematics.
miss everything i used to do.
miss everybody that i hang out with.
dread studying everyday.(though until now i dont really do so, hehe)
don't wanna be zombified.
i want my life back! life at manipal simply isn't a life.
i'll be strong. n i'll survive. life goes on.

Just a clarification

for the last post, i wasnt talking bout a particular someone. it's just the way ppl r in this world. n i just wrote it simply to release my tension. hav been under hell lotsa stress lately. that's all. n to all of u, we as human beings r never perfect. so ya, each n everyone of us is both the bully n the victim, including those who r extremely friendly n harmless. the difference is only whether we r aware that we r bullying or being bullied. well, the truth is, when u r with someone weaker, gentler, n more submissive u'll tend to be the bully n when u r with someone which looks stern n agressive u wouldnt try to buly that person, would u? so now u know my last post referred to everyone in this world, every single one, including myself. haha. hope i made it clear, i wasnt angry at someone or something. that's all for this week. gotta get back to my anatomy study. the test is on this wed n i still hav 100+ pages to study. bye.

forever stressed

Tired

just finished my anatomy PBL presentation today. relieved? no. what a disaster i've made. n also two more r coming. that's not all. physiology test is on sat. n biochemistry test will be soon as well. feel so exhausted. spent the night before saturating(n almost blowing) my brain with the PBL presentation that din even fetch me good marks. feel like sleeping, but piles of never-ending work r awaiting. studied finish today, tomorrow there r always new things to learn. but the thing is, i havent really picked up the study-everyday habit, hence the accumulation of work. sigh. can only blame myself. life has to go on. hope i'll be strong n still be sane at the end of 5 years. but if i do become insane, dear friends, pls dont abandon me, lol. i wont do any harm to u. hehe. enough of crapping. from now onwards there'll be less n less , simply cos i cant afford to waste time writing blog. it would hav been better spent on sleeping, n watching series(as i dont hav to use my brain compared to writing blog), so pls understand. thanks for reading.