Nothing to do

Well, it's not that i really have nothing to do, it's just that i'm too lazy to do anything. homework and books are piling up and yet i chose to close one eye. i'm just getting better and better at procrastinating. argh i hate my self for this! my laziness always gets the better of me :(
Now, some quick updates:
Currently i'm in the clinical phase already, which means i'm having postings in hospitals with different departments, namely Medicine, Psychiatry, Community Medicine, Paediatrics, Obstetric and Gynaecology, and lastly Surgery. Now i've finished 3 already, gonna finish the fourth one in another week(thank god!). My experience? It's kinda tiring to be standing all day long but overall it's still considered good. We learn to examine patients and apply whatever we've learned in the past two years into practice.
frankly speaking, every single day i have only 2 things in my mind during my posting: 1. what time is the class ending? i want it to finish asap. 2. i hope the class is being cancelled.
I even dreaded to go for classes on some days. What has happened to me? I think the major problem is the communication problem. I don't speak the Indian local language and it's kinda hard to talk to them. Even if i know how to speak, I don't know what they are telling me and yet we are supposed to ask tonnes of questions in order to get a freaking GOOD history from those patients. worse still, for those who even know how to speak english, i still have problem understanding them and they have problem understanding me too(their english is crappy). to even start the conversation i feel damn frustrated already. i just hope that the remaining less-than-two months can pass quickly.
Recently my mind has not been very productive, maybe because i watch less dramas and also those clinical postings tire me so much that i simply don't have time to do ponderings. However, fear not, i still spend time thinking each and every one of you, my dear friends. i really miss all of you very much.
alright, it's time for me to sleep. good night and merry christmas people! gotta go! =)
p/s: i was reading back my own previous posts and i was kinda impressed by my own thoughts and writings. lol. i guess my english is deteriorating. hah. alright ignore me. and thanks for reading this piece of crap. byeeeeeeeeee

闷

真想每天就这样坐着，什么都不想，什么都不做，没有责任，没有烦恼。唉....

27.5.2010

It has only been 2 months since i returned to Manipal, but why the heck does it feel like i'm stuck here for FREAKING ONE YEAR long already???? arghhh time please pass faster, i wanna go back! this is hell! I miss singing k n shopping~

Another random

I superlike this line written by a good friend. "We play, we crap, we laugh and we share! Because we're friends!" I miss my old friends...

By the way, here's something to ponder:
1. Repetition does not make something a fact or a truth.
2. I still think that silence is golden. The more you talk, the more mistake you make. there is a chinese proverb saying 祸从口出.
3. If u cannot ameliorate something, at least make some effort to prevent it from becoming worse.
4. Great minds think alike, and fools seldom differ too.
5. People say, seeing is believing. I say, observe and think carefully(perhaps 1000 times are still not enough), life is full of possibilities and sometimes what you see is a very small part of the whole picture. Never ever just touch the surface of the water and say you had dived into it. Every event has more than one side story. Be the judge yourself.

Random

1. I wish to just do nothing. Tests, can you just leave me alone?
2. Money isn't everything. "we cannot live without money" doesn't give u a right to be money-faced.
3. Ppl only do things that benefit themselves. i guess i'm too kind?
4. I'm a porcupine.
5. If only ifs are real...
6. Humans are flawed.
7. It is difficult to live in lies. whatever you are lying for, make sure it's worth the lies. Lie wisely.
8. Whatever happens, happens for a reason.
9. Sometimes a fool leads a happier life than an intelligent person.
10. The one i trust the most is not a who but a what - my instinct.

假日

今天是 Good Friday， 刚好是难得一年才有十天左右的假日其中之一。趁着刚开学不久，还没酱多功课，赶紧把已在hard disk 里很久港剧看完。真是好难得有得轻松啊！！虽然才回来一个星期，上的课也不多，但也足以让我觉得很累很累很累了。可能是因为这个sem即将要考uni exam吧。唉，想到就很显。。。

有谣言说星期一会有放假，真希望那是真的，酱我又有得休息多一天了。呵呵，懒惰的我就是这样，总是觉得假期不够多，不够长。有了一天，就会想要有另一天。

人，总是贪得无厌。。。

Haunted

Hehe. This post is not about ghosts or anything superstitious.

Human beings are always haunted. By what? One’s unresolved past. We always thought we are lucky enough to have escaped from something troubling us and tend to forget it, without knowing that the problem is silently incorporated into our lives n will strike us again one day. E.g. tomorrow is your test, you are not in time to finish your study but with luck somehow you manage to do well(or at least pass) in the test. You thought, phew, I don’t have to worry bout the unfinished portion because the test is over, n u don’t study for it. But, when the final exam comes, you will be haunted by the unfinished portion again n you still have to study for it.

That is only a small prob faced by students. In real life, there are a lot more problems(health, money, relationships etc) to be encountered, n to be solved. If u do not solve it, n u think it is over, then u r wrong. THE PAST WILL ALWAYS COME BACK TO HAUNT YOU. I’ve experienced it lots and lots of times. The same problem keeps getting back to you and it could be worse than the last one. There will be only 3 outcomes: 1. You face the prob, solve it and will never be bothered by it any longer; 2. You dodge a little here n a little there and somehow endured the prob without solving it, and u will run into it face to face again next time; 3. You run away from the prob and the next time u see it, the prob is amplified.

Therefore, if possible, always try your very best to face and solve your problem there n then. Haha, well, I’m not really fit to say this, because I always procrastinate and “only see to those emergency matters - those that I really hav no choice but to solve it” has been my policy. =P but i'm trying to change now because i realised certain aspects like health really cannot be ignored.

Anyway, it’s always a great reminder for u if u wanna improve urself to be a more efficient person. =)

That's all for now...