Relieved?

Another anatomy test had just passed.... what a relief! but there's never really time for rest, taking the medical course is just like hercules fighting the nine-headed monster which its name is Hydra if i'm not mistaken; as soon as u chop down one head, another two heads come out, n the heads just keep growing out non-stop. likewise, one test down, two more tests or pbl presentation will come out, n it's never-ending. sometimes i just wish time would stop for a while. it would be really great if i can just relax n do nothing for just this while.
now almost every time before n after test i'll look like crap, cos i dont get enough sleep. i wanna sleep for many hours in a day! sigh. n it dawned on me that my block exam is coming in 3 weeks' time, which is horrible! again sigh.
longing for my holiday in feb.
always sighing these days.
feel like i'm slowly disappearing in crowd(direct translation of 人间蒸发) cos dont hav time or too exhausted to keep in touch with ppl.
trying very hard to keep in contact with all my friends.
miss hanging out with friends.
miss playing poker n mahjong.
miss wasting time n lazing around without feeling guilty.
miss mathematics.
miss everything i used to do.
miss everybody that i hang out with.
dread studying everyday.(though until now i dont really do so, hehe)
don't wanna be zombified.
i want my life back! life at manipal simply isn't a life.
i'll be strong. n i'll survive. life goes on.